I named this blog post “Beetles, inspirations and all in between…” because “Beetles” will be my theme and inspiration for the next time and “all in between” is the reason why I urgently need some theme and inspiration right now:
The last weeks I was not really creating a lot. Work and colds had me tightly in their claws. Sometimes there are not enough hours in a day. I know that I should take a little bit more care about me but I work in research and we all are just project funded. At the end of the day it is not only my position depending on me. *sighs* You may wonder why I am still doing this “job”. In the end because it is more than a job. I can’t describe how much I love research, to have ideas, plan the experiments, see the students grow, and more than everything else, finally see the data! It is not always what was expected (most of the time actually, but otherwise it wouldn’t be research?) and there is nothing comparable to the rush when you have a puzzle piece before you that right now and here is in this moment yours only. Okay, the next impuls (and if you have scientist who are really loving the job, they all do it no matter age or status ;)) is to run around and shout out to everyone: “Look! Looooooooook!”
A lot of the people I studied with who were good and really loved science left research. Not because they didn’t love it anymore but rather because they couldn’t stand all what goes around. It is a loss for science sadly. My way to cope with the stress is to create. Every day a little bit, even if it would be only for five minutes. But being also ill for the last weeks I didn’t manage (even though I really need it!). As soon as I start I begin to relax and enjoy it – but do you know this moment where you don’t have any energy left to start? Even if rationally you know how good it would be for you?
To get out of this I went to our art supply store with a friend. I allowed myself just to buy things to play with. New colours I could test without the need to have a project. It still took some more time to start because I also thought more about whether there was a theme I could easily play with.
I have a lot of notes for ideas and projects but all of them seemed to be so big. I wanted something that would require minutes not hours or even days. Minutes…. so then I thought why not play more with the beetle theme that we had on our keep-us-sane-weekly-challenges at the Art Elements team? Also beetles and beetle wings are a constant theme in my work over the years. It would be great to explore it a little bit deeper.
Coming back to the beginning of my blog post: I am now working in cell / molecular biology / genetics working in the are of cell-based therapies. I never would have chosen the “classical” pathways like botany or zoology classification. But I am and always was fascinated of the unbelievable beauty you can find in nature. One requirement during my studies (I had to take two years also with botany and zoology) was to have a beetle collection. I never like the killing part but, oh well, I love the hunting part. To search around you, crawl in the thick forest, climbing on trees, looking under every stone… and there they were, beautiful hidden jewels no matter how basic and plain their colouring was. If you look closer every beetle is a masterpiece!
Don’t worry, I only did this once as study requirement and then no more. I have to admit that I always loved the hunting part, even as a little child. I was able to catch lizard, fish and even birds by hand (don’t now anymore how I did this…). Of course I let them go and as soon as I knew how to do this, I never did it again. But as a side note: I love playing pokemon go (as many of my biology friend too but pscht…! ). It allows me to have the hunting part without stressing any animal.
I realize I am a little bit rambling here. I hope you’ll excuse it and maybe gives you a better insight about my person. Being a scientist and my drive to create, both comes from the same need inside me. I hate repetitions and I am easily bored. A lot of things I won’t ever truly master because as soon as I am able to do it, I want something new “to play with”. I love challenges, puzzles, the questions research throws at you where it is sometimes more challenging to get how to solve a problem than about the answer itself. And there I thrive 🙂
So, here are some old and new pieces I created. All around the theme “beetle”. I think this theme may be with me for some time this year! It helped me to start my small motivational pieces because right now I feel better and am also tempted to stay up all night to get all my ideas done. No, I won’t do this but having some new supplies to play with, a time/size limit on my projects and a theme to go by, I finally started creating again. I needed it.
Moreover, you’ll also find a lot of gorgeous work around “beetles” at the Art Elements team! But I am also curious if you have some work around this or some inspirations you would share with me? You know me, I am curious! 🙂